What do I admire most?
There's an attribute most women that I admire share and it is resilience.
It's a form of strength, or maybe it's a derivative of it, but it's especially noticeable in the face of adversity.
A friend of mine, after suffering a huge loss when her partner died said this about the tears that come with loss:
Crying does not demonstrate strength. Strength is feeling the pain, crying about it, but still doing what needs to be done.I was struck by the raw truthfulness of this statement.
Letting go is difficult, change is challenging, but you seem to be holding yourself up to a standard that the rest of us don't. If you're not ready to date, don't. If you think you may be try it out.
BTW, you say your kids won't give you dating tips????