I know that you never imagined your life would be like this at 40. None of us did.
I keep asking myself: Where the hell is my live-in housekeeper? What about my summer home? Financial freedom?
Still, in smaller moments, I wish for these things.
Creature comforts seem overrated sometimes, don't they?
I am making light of the situation, for as you say, these things have not brought you happiness, only comfort. And now, not even that.
Stay strong, girlfriend.